Since you've been gone...

It's been a decade since my last post and i feel like 'just another one' of those failed bloggers, but i've written a post each day on my mind, you just didn't see it:)

I've started that culinary school i've been talking about for the last two years, the very expensive one:/ There seemed no other options for the moment, so i said what the hack:) So, it started on february 1st and i've recieved a 4-months education in the simplest form.. My answer to anyone whose willing to take this way: The only thing i bought, and you will have bought with this money is a diploma to open up a little path for you, other than that it's a barely-mediocre education, so on that part don't get your hopes up. You still have to educate yourself, but the stamp you get is powerful in Turkey for the moment:) PS: With this you also get the cutest stamp of being a spoiled brat from MSA :P

So let's get on to other things it's brought into my life.

I've had the chance to meet a rising star chef from NYC, watched him like a 5-year-old as he did his magic with liquid nitrogen. Then a friend denied him the pleasures of talking about food ( Sorry that

most of you didn't get this sentence, but the ones who did probably had a good laugh:) )... I've found two great friends that make time pass by so easily that you always end up saying: Damn, it's midnight already, we haven't even watch our movies yet:/

We had a hot hot lecture of biscuits from Biscolata guys Oscar and Haley. At that exact moment i realized what i've actually paid for, and felt reaaaallly good about it;))Here's also a link to their commercial, for those of you who don't already know:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DAesQfnvzd4

Anyways,

I now have started my internship at a well-known (worldwide) hotel's pastry kitchen. For diplomatic purposes i'll keep my opinions to myself for now, i'm sure you would all be understanding. It's been 10 days or so, and what i feel when i get home everyday is like somebody beat the bleep out of me all day through. My feet hurt, but not so much as my back... Kinda feels like my spine has been used for a Jenga game, and one of the vertebras is about to slip and lead to a destruction:) But i'm sure i'll get used to it, or to a good massage after it... Yet the pain is also most satisfying as it is from actually doing things. I've never even touched a dirty dish, or wiped the floors... For the 8 hours i work, i'm almost always baking baking baking... cakes, financiers, brownies, pannacottas, creme brules, etc... and ofcourse chocolate:)

Besides all that, i've also had a couple of orders in the last weeks. I'm making my fortune out of nasty nasty cakes and cupcakes. Bachelorette business is good, i may soon rule the bachelorette parties in Istanbul with my cupcakes, so here are some pics of that, too...

So...

apart from how tiring it is, everything is good. Can't wait to finish this internship and actually start working... I apologize for such an unorganised post, but i will spend more time on posting and writing fun and interesting ones again...

Eat chocolate, be good and i will see u later:)

"THE" second interview

Yesterday was my interview with the academy for a scholarship. Bump, bump, bump...

As a private college gradute, i needed to make every bit of my situation clear for them to even consider giving me a scholarship. So, i did. A funny story about how parents' divorce can cause a financial earthquake in a young adult's life. Yes, there still an eartquake when you're older; it's just financial this time, rather than emotional;) How am i not able to pay the 'innocent' amount of 11000TLs? I'll tell you how: If you're older than 18 at the time, your mother is not the only person who's getting a divorce.

Anyways, i made the situation crystal clear. Yet, being in the middle class gave me a nice kick in the **s once again. I cannot get a culinary education, because i'm neither rich enough, nor poor enough. And even that is just an illusion, because i AM poor enough, but my image says otherwise. I am a 23-year-old college graduate with no job, no income and non what-so-ever assets. How much poorer can i be?

I am NOT undermining the situations of real poor people that barely get on with their lives, i'm just trying to explain this bizarre situation about education. And i do consider the possibility that i could be just a spoiled brat, But is it okay to sit back and obey just because you are not in the WORST of all situations in life? You got yourself a pricy education, now go get yourself a banking job and live with it!!! Is this really possible? I think i choose being a spoiled brat in this case:)

So...

Using my big bright green eyes, and big smile of not 32, but 26 teeth; i managed to convince the executive chef to have one more interview by january and reconsider my situation in accordance with other scholarship applications. HOPE is still on my side people:)

Fingers crossed;)